If someone were to ask, I would tell them I've fallen in love twice in my life. With Tyler, who I've mentioned a lot on this blog, and with Andy, who I haven't shared too much about. My relationship with Andy started when I was 15 years old. He was my high school sweetheart, and more importantly, my best friend. We dated on and off for about six years, but regardless of our relationship status at the time, we always kept a super close friendship.
A little over three years ago Andy was supposed to be my date to my older brothers wedding, but at the last minute he was a no-show. That night, we went from talking at least once a day, to not speaking at all. When I say not speaking, I mean we haven't been in contact in any way, shape, or form in over three years. In an instant I lost the boy I loved, my best friend, and my biggest support system.
The way the scenario played out was ugly, but as crazy as it sounds, I wasn't ever really mad at him. I was hurt at the way he handled the situation, but I never hated him or blamed him. He was at a point in his life where he wanted to settle down, and I was a young 21 year old with the world at my fingertips and a long list of experiences I wanted to cross off. I always thought Andy would be a part of my life forever, I just wasn't ready to commit to forever at the same time he was. I spent the past three years coming to terms with the fact that this person would never be a part of my life again.
Fast-forward to this weekend.
Saturday night I got a notification on my phone, it was a Facebook friend request from Andy. I was floored. I accepted, assuming curiosity had gotten the best of him and he wanted to see what I had been up to these past years. He sent me a message and we've spent the past two days reconnecting.
To tell y'all that my head is spinning would be an understatement. I've been a walking ball of emotions with my head so deep in a fog that all I managed to do today was lay on the couch and eat half a package of Oreos. I'm so happy to have my friend back in my life, but I'm a little overwhelmed and confused and happy and sad all at the same time.
Obviously I don't need to over-think things, because as of right now there isn't anything to over-think. I'm just enjoying reconnecting with this person who was a huge part of my life. The one thing I have learned though is that you should never tell God "never" because he has an amazing sense of humor...