So, I haven't blogged in over a week. I had plans of a giveaway (which you can now enter here), a guest blog post, and an update after the Toyota Texas Bass Classic. Unfortunately, I went through a little thing called a breakup this week and it put all of that on hold.
I didn't know what I wanted to write or share with y'all. It's awkward, I wanted to tell people, but I have a hard time managing the "I'm sorry" that comes after. I was really sad (for about a day), but decided that I've cried WAY TOO MANY TEARS over this boy, and honestly, he's not worth it.
Tyler and I have been through a lot because we've been friends for so long, but we had never actually dated. Last February when he and I decided to date, I thought it was because both of us had finally reached a point where we were ready to give the relationship a fair chance. I believed that he and I both wanted to make this work, despite the distance, and despite the hurt we've both caused each other in the past. APPARENTLY I was wrong. Tyler told me this week that he wanted "easy and carefree - without so much commitment" I'm sorry, but I've never heard "easy" and "long distance" used in the same sentence. When you decide to date long distance, you know it's going to take work, and commitment.
I settled during this relationship, and put up with a lot of things I shouldn't have, because of an idea I had in my head of who Tyler was. I wanted him to be this ideal person so badly, but in reality he isn't, and I'm glad I'm not settling any longer. We disagree on a lot of things, such as the value of a college education, or the role a female plays in a marriage. I lied to myself and said that these issues didn't matter, but really, you need to share the same values as the person you're with. This is the foundation that will help the two of you make decisions throughout the relationship, and maybe for the rest of your life.
I know how I want to be treated, and how I deserve to be treated. I want a man who treats me as a priority in his life, someone who values me, and our relationship. I deserve a man who will be there to support me. The past two months have been some of the hardest in my life, and even though I was dating Tyler, I've felt alone. I want someone to laugh with, someone to be my best friend, and my biggest fan. Most importantly, I want someone who I can trust, who isn't selfish and will be there through the good AND the bad.
I share all of this so y'all know what's going on, but PLEASE don't feel bad for me. I'm happy and I know someone who is perfect for me will come along one day. Until then, I plan on enjoying the moment.
Let's end this post with some breakup humor shall we?! For all my single ladies...